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PARTY FOR ME - JHENร AIKO
party hard for me when i'm gone
look, i'ma need y'all dancin'
and when you cryin', don't stop cryin' 'til you laughin'
fuck that cryin' and dyin', i'm tryna stay alive
party hard for me when i'm gone
look, i'ma need y'all dancin'
and when you cryin', don't stop cryin' 'til you laughin'
fuck that cryin' and dyin', i'm tryna stay alive
ETERNAL SUNSHINE - JHENร AIKO
is is strange for me to say that
if i were to die today
there's not a thing i would change
maybe i have made mistakes and been through my fair share of pain
there's not a thing i would change
but all in all, it's been okay, i've lived well
is is strange for me to say that
if i were to die today
there's not a thing i would change
maybe i have made mistakes and been through my fair share of pain
there's not a thing i would change
but all in all, it's been okay, i've lived well
GOOD GRIEF - BASTILLE
shut my eyes and count to ten
it goes in one ear out the other
one ear out the other
now youโll be missing from the photographs
burning bright right till the end
missing from the photographs
shut my eyes and count to ten
it goes in one ear out the other
one ear out the other
now youโll be missing from the photographs
burning bright right till the end
missing from the photographs
LOSERS - THE WEEKND
only losers go to school
i taught myself how to move
i'm not the type to count on you
'cause stupid's next to "i love you"
no, so what can you show me
that my heart don't know already
we make our own sense
and you're qualified to me
and now that we've gone this far
who do we owe it all to
we did it all alone
now we're coming for the throne
only losers go to school
i taught myself how to move
i'm not the type to count on you
'cause stupid's next to "i love you"
no, so what can you show me
that my heart don't know already
we make our own sense
and you're qualified to me
and now that we've gone this far
who do we owe it all to
we did it all alone
now we're coming for the throne
BITCH DON'T KILL MY VIBE - KENDRICK LAMAR
we live in a world, we live in a world on two different axles
you live in a world, you living behind the mirror
i know what you scared of, the feeling of feeling emotions inferior
this shit is vital, i know you had to
die in a pitiful vain, tell me a watch and a chain
is way more believable, give me a feasible gain
rather a seasonal name, i'll let the people know this is something you can blame
on yourselves you can remain, stuck in a box
i'ma break out and then hide every lock
we live in a world, we live in a world on two different axles
you live in a world, you living behind the mirror
i know what you scared of, the feeling of feeling emotions inferior
this shit is vital, i know you had to
die in a pitiful vain, tell me a watch and a chain
is way more believable, give me a feasible gain
rather a seasonal name, i'll let the people know this is something you can blame
on yourselves you can remain, stuck in a box
i'ma break out and then hide every lock
HIGH HOPES - P! AT THE DISCO
mama said
fulfill the prophecy
be something greater
go make a legacy
manifest destiny
back in the days
we wanted everything, wanted everything
mama said
burn your biographies
rewrite your history
light up your wildest dreams
museum victories, everyday
we wanted everything, wanted everything
mama said don't give up, it's a little complicated
all tied up, no more love and i'd hate to see you waiting
mama said
fulfill the prophecy
be something greater
go make a legacy
manifest destiny
back in the days
we wanted everything, wanted everything
mama said
burn your biographies
rewrite your history
light up your wildest dreams
museum victories, everyday
we wanted everything, wanted everything
mama said don't give up, it's a little complicated
all tied up, no more love and i'd hate to see you waiting
NEW PERSON, SAME OLD MISTAKES - TAME IMPALA
i can just hear them now
how could you let us down?
but they don't know what i found
or see it from this way around
feeling it overtake
all that i used to hate
one by one, every trait
i tried but it's way too late
all the signs i don't read
two sides of me can't agree
will i be in too deep?
going with what i always longed for
feel like a brand new person
(but you make the same old mistakes)
i can just hear them now
how could you let us down?
but they don't know what i found
or see it from this way around
feeling it overtake
all that i used to hate
one by one, every trait
i tried but it's way too late
all the signs i don't read
two sides of me can't agree
will i be in too deep?
going with what i always longed for
feel like a brand new person
(but you make the same old mistakes)
CAN YOU KEEP A SECRET? - ELLISE
so much on my brain, don't know if you can take it
your heart is fragile baby i don't wanna break it
if you know my sins will you still trust me?
if i let you in will you still love me?
can you keep a secret?
i've got skeletons, they're coming out the closet
the hands around my throat don't want me to be honest
if i show you inside me, the ghost in my mind
will you treat them like your friends?
i, i gotta know
can you keep a secret?
so much on my brain, don't know if you can take it
your heart is fragile baby i don't wanna break it
if you know my sins will you still trust me?
if i let you in will you still love me?
can you keep a secret?
i've got skeletons, they're coming out the closet
the hands around my throat don't want me to be honest
if i show you inside me, the ghost in my mind
will you treat them like your friends?
i, i gotta know
can you keep a secret?
HOLD ME DOWN - HALSEY
selfish, taking what i want and call it mine
i'm helpless, clinging to a little bit of spine
they rush me, telling me i'm running out of time
they shush me, walking me across a fragile line
i sold my soul to a three-piece
and he told me i was holy
he's got me down on both knees
but it's the devil that's tryna
hold me down, hold me down
sneaking out the back door, make no sound
knock me out, knock me out saying that i want more, this is what i live for
selfish, taking what i want and call it mine
i'm helpless, clinging to a little bit of spine
they rush me, telling me i'm running out of time
they shush me, walking me across a fragile line
i sold my soul to a three-piece
and he told me i was holy
he's got me down on both knees
but it's the devil that's tryna
hold me down, hold me down
sneaking out the back door, make no sound
knock me out, knock me out saying that i want more, this is what i live for
LSD - JHENร AIKO
how you like it up there?
what's your view from there?
i bet it's so cool to jet across the moon
that's how i picture you in my head
can't get outta my bed ever since you had left
don't got nothin' left, walkin' 'round half dead
came all this way just to break every promise and do
everything you said i shouldn't do
but those things bring me closer to you, yeah
how you like it up there?
what's your view from there?
i bet it's so cool to jet across the moon
that's how i picture you in my head
can't get outta my bed ever since you had left
don't got nothin' left, walkin' 'round half dead
came all this way just to break every promise and do
everything you said i shouldn't do
but those things bring me closer to you, yeah
COMFORT INN ENDING - JHENร AIKO
thought i told you not to trust these hoes
say they love you, when you know they don't
say they will, but shit, you know they won't
yeah, you hear me, you don't feel me, though
i was weak then and you knew it
i was so weak then and you proved it
'cause my brother was dying
and you gave me a shoulder to cry on
it was nothing, it's nothing, it's nothing, it's nothing
then why'd you
then why'd you call it love?
and i was not only one who was hurting
and you were not the only one with the burdens
if this was not love then please tell me what was it?
thought i told you not to trust these hoes
say they love you, when you know they don't
say they will, but shit, you know they won't
yeah, you hear me, you don't feel me, though
i was weak then and you knew it
i was so weak then and you proved it
'cause my brother was dying
and you gave me a shoulder to cry on
it was nothing, it's nothing, it's nothing, it's nothing
then why'd you
then why'd you call it love?
and i was not only one who was hurting
and you were not the only one with the burdens
if this was not love then please tell me what was it?
IF I KILLED SOMEONE FOR YOU - ALEC BENJAMIN
i'm sorry that i did this, the blood is on my hands
i stare at my reflection, i don't know who i am
practice my confession, in case i take the stand
i'll say i learned my lesson, i'll be a better man
i did it all for her so i felt nothing at all
i don't know what she'll say so i'll ask her when she calls
would you love me more if i killed someone for you?
would you hold my hand? they're the same ones that i used
when i killed someone for you
would you turn me in when they say i'm on the loose?
'cause i killed someone for you
you have to understand that the one i killed is me
changing what i was for what you wanted me to be
i followed your direction did everything you asked
i hope that makes you happy 'cause there's just no turning back
i'm sorry that i did this, the blood is on my hands
i stare at my reflection, i don't know who i am
practice my confession, in case i take the stand
i'll say i learned my lesson, i'll be a better man
i did it all for her so i felt nothing at all
i don't know what she'll say so i'll ask her when she calls
would you love me more if i killed someone for you?
would you hold my hand? they're the same ones that i used
when i killed someone for you
would you turn me in when they say i'm on the loose?
'cause i killed someone for you
you have to understand that the one i killed is me
changing what i was for what you wanted me to be
i followed your direction did everything you asked
i hope that makes you happy 'cause there's just no turning back
KILL ALL YOUR FRIENDS - MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
well, you can hide a lot about yourself
but, honey, what are you gonna do?
and you can sleep in a coffin, but the past ain't through with you
'cause we are all a bunch of liars, tell me, baby, who do you wanna be?
and we are all about to sell it, 'cause it's tragic with a capital T
let it be, let it be, let it be
'cause we all wanna party when the funeral ends
and we all get together when we bury our friends
it's been eight bitter years since i've been seeing your face
and you're walking away
and i will die in this place
well, you can hide a lot about yourself
but, honey, what are you gonna do?
and you can sleep in a coffin, but the past ain't through with you
'cause we are all a bunch of liars, tell me, baby, who do you wanna be?
and we are all about to sell it, 'cause it's tragic with a capital T
let it be, let it be, let it be
'cause we all wanna party when the funeral ends
and we all get together when we bury our friends
it's been eight bitter years since i've been seeing your face
and you're walking away
and i will die in this place
I DON'T WANNA LIVE FOREVER - ZAYN
been sitting eyes wide open behind these four walls, hoping you'd call
it's just a cruel existence like there's no point hoping at all
baby, baby, i feel crazy, up all night, all night and every day
give me something, oh, but you say nothing
what is happening to me?
i don't wanna live forever, 'cause i know I'll be living in vain
and i don't wanna fit wherever
i just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
i've been looking sad in all the nicest places
Baby, baby, i feel crazy
i see you around in all these empty faces
all night, all night and every day
been sitting eyes wide open behind these four walls, hoping you'd call
it's just a cruel existence like there's no point hoping at all
baby, baby, i feel crazy, up all night, all night and every day
give me something, oh, but you say nothing
what is happening to me?
i don't wanna live forever, 'cause i know I'll be living in vain
and i don't wanna fit wherever
i just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
i've been looking sad in all the nicest places
Baby, baby, i feel crazy
i see you around in all these empty faces
all night, all night and every day
ONE WAY STREET - JHENร AIKO
going the wrong way on a one-way street,โ
i'mโ feelin' strangely saneโ today
i am amazed, i'm brave today
iโ rearranged my brain today
i rearranged my ways
i wait for love, i waste away
wasting my days, i waste away
i wasted love, i waste away
wasting my days, i wait
melancholy, mediocre mess
maybe i should just give it a rest now
i just gotta get this off my chest
lately, i have been so fuckin' stressed out
flippy-floppy, wishy-washy, never twice the same
found her calling, now they're calling her another name
"this bitch crazy, or just maybe so sane she's insane"
hard to say, well, who's to say which way is the wrong way
going the wrong way on a one-way street,โ
i'mโ feelin' strangely saneโ today
i am amazed, i'm brave today
iโ rearranged my brain today
i rearranged my ways
i wait for love, i waste away
wasting my days, i waste away
i wasted love, i waste away
wasting my days, i wait
melancholy, mediocre mess
maybe i should just give it a rest now
i just gotta get this off my chest
lately, i have been so fuckin' stressed out
flippy-floppy, wishy-washy, never twice the same
found her calling, now they're calling her another name
"this bitch crazy, or just maybe so sane she's insane"
hard to say, well, who's to say which way is the wrong way
HEY BROTHER - AVICII
hey brother, there's an endless road to rediscover
hey sister, know that water's sweet, but blood is thicker
oh, if the sky comes falling down for you
there's nothing in this world i wouldn't do
hey brother, do you still believe in one another?
hey sister, do you still believe in love? i wonder
oh, if the sky comes falling down for you
there's nothing in this world i wouldn't do
what if i'm far from home?
oh brother, i will hear you call
what if i lose it all?
oh sister, i will help you out
oh, if the sky comes falling down for you
there's nothing in this world i wouldn't do
hey brother, there's an endless road to rediscover
hey sister, know that water's sweet, but blood is thicker
oh, if the sky comes falling down for you
there's nothing in this world i wouldn't do
hey brother, do you still believe in one another?
hey sister, do you still believe in love? i wonder
oh, if the sky comes falling down for you
there's nothing in this world i wouldn't do
what if i'm far from home?
oh brother, i will hear you call
what if i lose it all?
oh sister, i will help you out
oh, if the sky comes falling down for you
there's nothing in this world i wouldn't do
PRETTY BIRD - JHENร AIKO
said, she had just, self expressed
herself to death, now nothing's left
nothingness she finessed it she the best
pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird
sounds so pretty when you cry
pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird
you're so pretty, but why i never see you fly?
pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird
please don't die, please don't die
pretty bird, pretty bird, i know you're hurtin'
well so am i, so am i
pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird
please don't cry, you can fly
and there's a blinding light inside of you
there's a blinding light inside of you
and they can not deny you, they can not deny you
all night, all night and every day
said, she had just, self expressed
herself to death, now nothing's left
nothingness she finessed it she the best
pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird
sounds so pretty when you cry
pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird
you're so pretty, but why i never see you fly?
pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird
please don't die, please don't die
pretty bird, pretty bird, i know you're hurtin'
well so am i, so am i
pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird, pretty bird
please don't cry, you can fly
and there's a blinding light inside of you
there's a blinding light inside of you
and they can not deny you, they can not deny you
all night, all night and every day
ALL THINGS I'VE DONE - THE KILLER
when there's nowhere else to run
is there room for one more son?
if you can hold on, hold on
i wanna stand up, i wanna let go
you know, you know, no, you don't, you don't
i wanna shine on in the hearts of men
i want a meaning from the back of my broken hand
another head aches, another heart breaks
i'm so much older than i can take
and my affection, well, it comes and goes
i need direction to perfection, no, no, no, no
you're gonna bring yourself down
over and in, last call for sin
while everyone's lost, the battle is won
with all these things that i've done
when there's nowhere else to run
is there room for one more son?
if you can hold on, hold on
i wanna stand up, i wanna let go
you know, you know, no, you don't, you don't
i wanna shine on in the hearts of men
i want a meaning from the back of my broken hand
another head aches, another heart breaks
i'm so much older than i can take
and my affection, well, it comes and goes
i need direction to perfection, no, no, no, no
you're gonna bring yourself down
over and in, last call for sin
while everyone's lost, the battle is won
with all these things that i've done
SONG FOR A GUILTY SADIST - CRYWANK
this makes me feel like a weak man who thinks that he is strong
must i play the chauvinist to be the man you want?
sweaty fingers push down on your throat, you say you like it rough
but it's hard to think i do this out of love
and from my own submissive pleasure i want to do just as you wish
But i slap your face too lightly when you ask me to make fists
oh, how rude of me to bring my thoughts into your bedroom
is it condescending to be so scared i might hurt you?
this makes me feel like a weak man who thinks that he is strong
must i play the chauvinist to be the man you want?
sweaty fingers push down on your throat, you say you like it rough
but it's hard to think i do this out of love
and from my own submissive pleasure i want to do just as you wish
But i slap your face too lightly when you ask me to make fists
oh, how rude of me to bring my thoughts into your bedroom
is it condescending to be so scared i might hurt you?
TURN IT OFF - PARAMORE
i scraped my knees while i was praying
and found a demon in my safest haven, seems like
it's getting harder to believe in anything
then just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts
i wanna know what it'd be like
to find perfection in my pride
to see nothing in the light
but turn it off in all my spite
and the worst part is before it gets any better
we're headed for a cliff
and in the free fall i will realize
i'm better off when i hit the bottom
the tragedy, it seems unending
i'm watching everyone i looked up to break and bending
we're taking shortcuts and false solutions
just to come out the hero
well, i can see behind the curtain
the wheels are cranking, turning, so on the way we're working
towards a goal, that's non existent
it's not existent, but we just keep believing
i scraped my knees while i was praying
and found a demon in my safest haven, seems like
it's getting harder to believe in anything
then just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts
i wanna know what it'd be like
to find perfection in my pride
to see nothing in the light
but turn it off in all my spite
and the worst part is before it gets any better
we're headed for a cliff
and in the free fall i will realize
i'm better off when i hit the bottom
the tragedy, it seems unending
i'm watching everyone i looked up to break and bending
we're taking shortcuts and false solutions
just to come out the hero
well, i can see behind the curtain
the wheels are cranking, turning, so on the way we're working
towards a goal, that's non existent
it's not existent, but we just keep believing
BREAK MY HEART MYSELF - BEBE REXHA
i'm living and i'm dreaming
trying to stay even, oh
no, i don't need your help
to make me sick, to make me ill
i don't need anybody else
'cause i can break my heart myself
i don't need your help
getting off of this carousel
i don't need anybody else
'cause i can break my heart myself
today went really well
i didn't wake up in a panic spell
it was fine, even though i fell
deeper and deeper into manic hell
i'm living and i'm dreaming
trying to stay even, oh
no, i don't need your help
to make me sick, to make me ill
i don't need anybody else
'cause i can break my heart myself
i don't need your help
getting off of this carousel
i don't need anybody else
'cause i can break my heart myself
today went really well
i didn't wake up in a panic spell
it was fine, even though i fell
deeper and deeper into manic hell
SI JE PERDS - ZAZ
i feel like a second-hand store, i'm the wicked one.
if my children invite me over, i act unsatisfied,
and when they visit me, i'm transparent
i look pale, i sob.
if i lose my memory, don't you be worried,
it's just that my life reached the end of a sad day.
if i lose my mind, don't you be angry
if it's not my home anymore, just leave me in the hallway.
if i lose my grip, and if it makes you worried,
if it makes you feel bad, or if i don't recognize you anymore,
and if i drop the ball, don't you pity me,
my head is crowded with forgotten faces.
i feel like a second-hand store, i'm the wicked one.
if my children invite me over, i act unsatisfied,
and when they visit me, i'm transparent
i look pale, i sob.
if i lose my memory, don't you be worried,
it's just that my life reached the end of a sad day.
if i lose my mind, don't you be angry
if it's not my home anymore, just leave me in the hallway.
if i lose my grip, and if it makes you worried,
if it makes you feel bad, or if i don't recognize you anymore,
and if i drop the ball, don't you pity me,
my head is crowded with forgotten faces.
SWITCH - 6LACK
i'm thinking 'bout a Yamaha
to get away from all the cameras
i'm over it, don't wanna fantasize
fate is 'round the corner, right
it hit me right between the eyes
it's funny when they switch and pick a side
ain't nobody gotta go through what i'm going through, no
but it seems like they all know what i'm supposed to do so
let switch bodies for a day you could me be and i could be you
juggle the pile of shit that's bound to come through
you can have it since it's automatic
i told you everything from the start
and you the one that had the change of heart
i'm human, don't you think i had enough?
my woman claiming that i switched on her
only 'cause i hit a switch on her
she wasn't really good at keeping up
i'm thinking 'bout a Yamaha
to get away from all the cameras
i'm over it, don't wanna fantasize
fate is 'round the corner, right
it hit me right between the eyes
it's funny when they switch and pick a side
ain't nobody gotta go through what i'm going through, no
but it seems like they all know what i'm supposed to do so
let switch bodies for a day you could me be and i could be you
juggle the pile of shit that's bound to come through
you can have it since it's automatic
i told you everything from the start
and you the one that had the change of heart
i'm human, don't you think i had enough?
my woman claiming that i switched on her
only 'cause i hit a switch on her
she wasn't really good at keeping up
NIGHTMARE - HALSEY
i've tasted blood and it is sweet
i've had the rug pulled beneath my feet
i've trusted lies and trusted men
broke down and put myself back together again
stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters
collected the pieces and picked out a dagger
"come on, little lady, give us a smile"
no, i ain't got nothin' to smile about
i got no one to smile for, i waited a while for
a moment to say i don't owe you a goddamn thing
keep my exes in check in my basement
'cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you're complacent
i could play nice or i could be a bully
i'm tired and angry, but somebody should be
someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
but i'm glad to be a real nightmare, so save me your prayers
i've tasted blood and it is sweet
i've had the rug pulled beneath my feet
i've trusted lies and trusted men
broke down and put myself back together again
stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters
collected the pieces and picked out a dagger
"come on, little lady, give us a smile"
no, i ain't got nothin' to smile about
i got no one to smile for, i waited a while for
a moment to say i don't owe you a goddamn thing
keep my exes in check in my basement
'cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you're complacent
i could play nice or i could be a bully
i'm tired and angry, but somebody should be
someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
but i'm glad to be a real nightmare, so save me your prayers
HEATHENS - 21 PILOTS
welcome to the room of people
who have rooms of people that they loved one day
docked away
just because we check the guns at the door
doesn't mean our brains will change from hand grenades
you'll never know the psychopath sitting next to you
you'll never know the murderer sitting next to you
you'll think, "how'd i get here, sitting next to you?"
why'd you come? you knew you should have stayed
i tried to warn you just to stay away
and now they're outside ready to bust
it looks like you might be one of us.
welcome to the room of people
who have rooms of people that they loved one day
docked away
just because we check the guns at the door
doesn't mean our brains will change from hand grenades
you'll never know the psychopath sitting next to you
you'll never know the murderer sitting next to you
you'll think, "how'd i get here, sitting next to you?"
why'd you come? you knew you should have stayed
i tried to warn you just to stay away
and now they're outside ready to bust
it looks like you might be one of us.
I DIDN'T CHANGE MY NUMBER - BILLIE EILISH
i didn't change my number
i only changed who i reply to
koko laura said i should be nicer
but not to you
i love a "you mad at me?" text
should've guessed
that you would think i was upset
you're obsessed
don't take it out on me
i'm out of sympathy for you
maybe you should leave
before i get too mean
i didn't change my number
i only changed who i believe in
you were easy on the eyes, eyes, eyes
but looks can be deceiving
i gotta work, i go to work
you don't deserve to feel so hurt
you gotta a lot of fucking nerve
i don't deserve, so
i didn't change my number
i only changed who i reply to
but not to you
i love a "you mad at me?" text
should've guessed
that you would think i was upset
you're obsessed
don't take it out on me
i'm out of sympathy for you
maybe you should leave
before i get too mean
i didn't change my number
i only changed who i believe in
you were easy on the eyes, eyes, eyes
but looks can be deceiving
i gotta work, i go to work
you don't deserve to feel so hurt
you gotta a lot of fucking nerve
i don't deserve, so
ACHILLES COME DOWN - GANG OF YOUTHS
achilles, achilles, achilles, come down
won't you get up off, get up off the roof?
you're scaring us and all of us, some of us love you
achilles, it's not much but there's proof
you crazy-assed cosmonaut, remember your virtue
redemption lies plainly in truth
achilles, achilles, achilles, come down
won't you get up off, get up off the roof?
the self is not so weightless, nor whole and unbroken
remember the pact of our youth
hurt and grieve but don't suffer alone
engage with the pain as a motive
achilles, achilles, just put down the bottle
don't listen to what you've consumed
it's chaos, confusion and wholly unworthy
of feeding and it's wholly untrue
you may feel no purpose nor a point for existing
it's all just conjecture and gloom
and there may not be meaning, so find one and seize it
do not waste yourself on this roof
achilles, achilles, achilles, come down
won't you get up off, get up off the roof?
you're scaring us and all of us, some of us love you
achilles, it's not much but there's proof
you crazy-assed cosmonaut, remember your virtue
redemption lies plainly in truth
achilles, achilles, achilles, come down
won't you get up off, get up off the roof?
the self is not so weightless, nor whole and unbroken
remember the pact of our youth
hurt and grieve but don't suffer alone
engage with the pain as a motive
achilles, achilles, just put down the bottle
don't listen to what you've consumed
it's chaos, confusion and wholly unworthy
of feeding and it's wholly untrue
you may feel no purpose nor a point for existing
it's all just conjecture and gloom
and there may not be meaning, so find one and seize it
do not waste yourself on this roof
MONSTER - SHAWN MENDES
you put me on a pedestal and tell me i'm the best
raise me up into the sky until i'm short of breath, yeah
fill me up with confidence, i say what's in my chest
spill my words and tear me down until there's nothin' left
rearrange the pieces just to fit me with the rest, yeah
but what if i, what if i trip? what if i, what if i fall?
then am i the monster?
just let me know
and what if i, what if i sin?
and what if i, what if i break?
then am i the monster?
just let me know, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
i was fifteen when the world put me on a pedestal
i had big dreams of doin' shows and makin' memories
i'll take responsibility for everything i've done
holdin' it against me like you're the holy one
i had a chip on my shoulder, had to let it go
'cause unforgiveness keeps them in control
i came in with good intentions then i let it go
and now i really wanna know
then am I the monster?
you put me on a pedestal and tell me i'm the best
raise me up into the sky until i'm short of breath, yeah
fill me up with confidence, i say what's in my chest
spill my words and tear me down until there's nothin' left
rearrange the pieces just to fit me with the rest, yeah
but what if i, what if i trip? what if i, what if i fall?
then am i the monster?
just let me know
and what if i, what if i sin?
and what if i, what if i break?
then am i the monster?
just let me know, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
i was fifteen when the world put me on a pedestal
i had big dreams of doin' shows and makin' memories
i'll take responsibility for everything i've done
holdin' it against me like you're the holy one
i had a chip on my shoulder, had to let it go
'cause unforgiveness keeps them in control
i came in with good intentions then i let it go
and now i really wanna know
then am I the monster?
BIGGEST MISTAKE - ELLIE GOLDING
you tread water
fighting for the air in your lungs
maybe you can right all your wrongs
but you let go 'cause your hope is gone
and every answer fades away
it's a shame you don't know what you're running from
would your bones have to break and your lights turn off
would it take the end of time to hear your heart's false start
you know this is your biggest mistake
what a waste, what a waste, what a waste
and of all the things you never explained
when you know this is your biggest mistake
wipe the mud spray from the face, stop the engine
and stop pretending
wipe the mud spray from your face, stop the engine
and stop pretending that you're still breathing
you tread water
fighting for the air in your lungs
maybe you can right all your wrongs
but you let go 'cause your hope is gone
and every answer fades away
it's a shame you don't know what you're running from
would your bones have to break and your lights turn off
would it take the end of time to hear your heart's false start
you know this is your biggest mistake
what a waste, what a waste, what a waste
and of all the things you never explained
when you know this is your biggest mistake
wipe the mud spray from the face, stop the engine
and stop pretending
wipe the mud spray from your face, stop the engine
and stop pretending that you're still breathing
100 LETTERS - HALSEY
how can midas put his hands on me again?
he said "one day i'd realize why i don't have any friends"
but he can make me golden if i just showed some respect
but i don't let him touch me anymore
i said "i'm not something to butter up
and taste when you get bored
'cause i have spent too many nights on dirty bathroom floors
to find some peace and quiet right behind a wooden door"
he said "please don't go away"
and now i can't stop thinking that i can't stop thinking
that i almost gave you everything
and now the whole thing's finished and i can't stop wishing
that i never gave you anything
you wrote 100 letters just for me
and i find them in my closet in the pockets of my jeans
now i'm constantly reminded of the time i was15 19
every single one's forgotten in a laundromat machine
how can midas put his hands on me again?
he said "one day i'd realize why i don't have any friends"
but he can make me golden if i just showed some respect
but i don't let him touch me anymore
i said "i'm not something to butter up
and taste when you get bored
'cause i have spent too many nights on dirty bathroom floors
to find some peace and quiet right behind a wooden door"
he said "please don't go away"
and now i can't stop thinking that i can't stop thinking
that i almost gave you everything
and now the whole thing's finished and i can't stop wishing
that i never gave you anything
you wrote 100 letters just for me
and i find them in my closet in the pockets of my jeans
now i'm constantly reminded of the time i was
every single one's forgotten in a laundromat machine
TIL I'M BLEEDING OUT - THE WEEKND
i can't move, i'm so paralyzed
i'm so paralyzed
i can't explain why i'm terrified
i'm so terrified
well, i don't wanna touch the sky no more
i just wanna feel the ground when i'm coming down
it's been way too long
and i don't even wanna get high no more
just want it out of my life
i wanna cut you outta my dreams
'til i'm bleeding out
i keep telling myself i don't need it
i keep telling myself i don't need it anymore
i can't move, i'm so paralyzed
i'm so paralyzed
i can't explain why i'm terrified
i'm so terrified
well, i don't wanna touch the sky no more
i just wanna feel the ground when i'm coming down
it's been way too long
and i don't even wanna get high no more
just want it out of my life
i wanna cut you outta my dreams
'til i'm bleeding out
i keep telling myself i don't need it
i keep telling myself i don't need it anymore
THE WORST - JHENร AIKO
i don't need you, i don't need you
but i want you
i don't mean to, i don't mean to
but i love you
you said that you would come again
you know that i do not depend on
nothing or no one
so why would you show up
so uninvited then
just change my mind like that
please don't take this personal
but you ain't shit and you weren't special
'til i made you so
you better act like you know
that i been through worse than you
i just can't keep runnin' away
you live in a different time zone
think i know what this is
it's just the time's wrong
yeah, i know what you did
and my love is patient
and kind, and shit
this is real we can build
through different types of shit
if you was really the realest
wouldn't be fightin' it
i think your pride is just
in the way
funny how everything changed
once you got all that you wanted
nothing was ever the same
i don't need you, i don't need you
but i want you
i don't mean to, i don't mean to
but i love you
you said that you would come again
you know that i do not depend on
nothing or no one
so why would you show up
so uninvited then
just change my mind like that
please don't take this personal
but you ain't shit and you weren't special
'til i made you so
you better act like you know
that i been through worse than you
i just can't keep runnin' away
you live in a different time zone
think i know what this is
it's just the time's wrong
yeah, i know what you did
and my love is patient
and kind, and shit
this is real we can build
through different types of shit
if you was really the realest
wouldn't be fightin' it
i think your pride is just
in the way
funny how everything changed
once you got all that you wanted
nothing was ever the same
I LOVE YOU - BILLY EILISH
it's not true
tell me iโve been lied to
crying isn't like you, ooh
what the hell did i do?
maybe won't you take it back?
say you were tryna make me laugh
and nothing has to change today
up all night on another red-eye
we wish we never learned to fly
maybe we should just try
to tell ourselves a good lie
didn't mean to make you cry
it's not true
tell me iโve been lied to
crying isn't like you, ooh
what the hell did i do?
maybe won't you take it back?
say you were tryna make me laugh
and nothing has to change today
up all night on another red-eye
we wish we never learned to fly
maybe we should just try
to tell ourselves a good lie
didn't mean to make you cry
U GO I GO - ABRA
as this world makes a thousand revolutions
i keep coming to the conclusion that we
werenโt meant to
walk through this fire alone
and as i try and and wade through the confusion
i get caught up in the illusion that iโm only a
storm unto my own
unto my own
but i was thinking i would
and you was thinking you could
and we was thinking we should
get it together babe
get it together babe
beating down the block at night
baby let me into your empire
your home will be my home
your gold will be my gold
where you go i will go
as this world makes a thousand revolutions
i keep coming to the conclusion that we
werenโt meant to
walk through this fire alone
and as i try and and wade through the confusion
i get caught up in the illusion that iโm only a
storm unto my own
unto my own
but i was thinking i would
and you was thinking you could
and we was thinking we should
get it together babe
get it together babe
beating down the block at night
baby let me into your empire
your home will be my home
your gold will be my gold
where you go i will go
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